Contentment

I've made a decision that has been keeping me from actually being a real person for a week, being that I've been stressed. I decided NOT to take the apprenticeship. I feel right now in my life I am not entirely focused on my path. I would love to learn farming and all about CSAs later on, after I have some savings and can afford to take 9 months off of life.

I got home in August, and have been working (horrible) part-time rates for a videographer, so what's a girl to do? I applied at a coffee shop on the beach, whoohoo, and also am going to be a teachers aid/substitute teacher in my area. It's not a "dream job" or "a life changing decision" but that is okay with me. Sometimes it takes a bigger person to step back take the low-road for a change. This summer will humble me and even though I'll be home, I feel I will stil learn a lot about myself. I also can continue to "job-hunt" although it's rough out there, who knows what'll happen...

Update on the working out.....sad to say I felt the pulled groin today when I was walking up the stairs and my sister who is knowledgeable about fitness said "NOOOO" to working out. UGH I hate this. I feel like flab is taking over my body......yuck... But I feel good about my weight which is good (I've been eating pretty decent)

All in all, I am content with my decision, although contentment in life is my greatest fear, which means I am going to continue to be on the lookout for new opportunities and adventures...

Life is good,
Erin